classy.

here's the rundown of your college girl:

TR:

Philosophy in Education:

cutest old man is my teacher.



this is pretty much how he looks. i could barely hear him, but he makes me think. the class is challenging, but i guess if everything was easy, i would never step down from my high horse and learn anything. i sat behind this smelly man from thailand, but im sure he showers every MWF.



Appreciation of Theatre:

British professor. 12 students. Lone Mountain, aka, i'm gonna lose weight. my favorite campus. :) I already love this class. so chill, so interesting. Hoping to rekindle my love for theatre.


Ballet:

graciela is my random russian/czech/idunnowhat teacher. this class is gonna be fun and chill. no final!


MWF:

PUBLIC SPEAKING at freakin' 8:15. i'm so glad i got in though. i was signed up for some bullshit english rhetoric class that i shouldn't even have to take, but whatever. i'll deal with that later.

QUANTITATIVE METHODS IN BUSINESS: Math with the most boring teacher ever. Hes a lamesauce version of Santa Claus, basically.

wish me luck in life and love.

bring me FLOURS.

i'm in a quaint coffee house off haight and cole and just enjoying my life right now. living peacefully, everything so serene, listening to my boy Jason Mraz. Is this the life I've been praying for? Yezzzirr, more than I could have ever imagined. I'm in love with the city. I realized that I came here to find my LOVE, as I had been anticipating all summer and since silly prom. and guess what? I've found it. her name is San Francisco. :) I know that's very Carrie-sex-in-the-city status, but it's the truth. Los Angeles will always be my home, my cherished baby that no one better talk shit about. But this is my adventure. My challenge. my cup of tea. Come visit me.

14 YEARS AND COUNTING.

We've been through so much together and through it all... we've survived. playing uno stacko with them, taking cue pics... it made me realize that friendship really CAN stand the test of time if even a mustard seed of effort is made.

wednesday.

my stinica sistahs adorned me with the most amazing college goodbye everrrrr. beauty and the beast dvd. PLEDGED. laminated picture card. picture frame. starbucks picture travel mug. faux sunflowers. peach rings. trident fruit orange gum. starbucks bottled fraps. shia poster. and plenty of tears.




the ones i love. my friends from youth YOUNG ADULT ministry. here's a taste of Vegas.







goodbyes are finally getting ridiculously difficult.

insightful.

"I searched for God and found only myself. I searched for myself and found only God."
-Sufi Proverb

"True religion is the life we lead, not the creed we profess."
-Louis Nizer

"A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunities,
and an optimist is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties."
-Harry S. Truman

"There is no way to peace. Peace is the way."
-A.J. Muste

"Mediocrity is self-inflicted. Genius is self-bestowed."
---Walter Russell

"The shortest and surest way to live with honor in the
world is to be in reality what we would appear to be."
--- Socrates

WORDS OF WISDOM ABOUT LIFE:

1. No one can ruin your day without YOUR permission.
2. Most people will be about as happy, as they decide to be.
3. Others can stop you temporarily, but only you can do it permanently.
4. Whatever you are willing to put up with, is exactly what you will have.
5. Success stops when you do.
6. When your ship comes in make sure you are willing to unload it.
7. You will never "have it all together".
8. Life is a journey, not a destination. Enjoy the trip!
9. The biggest lie on the planet: "When I get what I want I will be happy".
10. The best way to escape your problem is to solve it.
11. I've learned that ultimately , 'takers' lose and 'givers' win.
12. Life's precious moments don't have value, unless they are shared.
13. If you don't start, it's certain you won't arrive.
14. We often fear the thing we want the most.
15. He or she who laughs......lasts.
16. Yesterday was the deadline for all complaints.
17. Look for opportunities, not guarantees.
18. Life is what's coming, not what was.
19. Success is getting up one more time.
20. Now is the most interesting time of all.
21. When things go wrong, don't go with them.

Faith Beyond Measure.

I refuse to have my faith stifled by petty, obnoxious, judgmental, hypocritical people. Who is to say, other than God, whether or not my heart is in the right place, regardless of how I am dressed? Do not judge me. Do not stamp me as a sinner because I already know my place. Accept me for who I am and give me room to change; DON'T suffocate me.

never right.

you would think this is what i wanted to see and hear, but it's not. just when i thought i knew what God was trying to tell me, I don't! why do these silly boys keep popping back up into my life?

publish post.

after today is over, nine days.

what have i learned this summer?

don't ever let your guard down.

getting drunk is simply drowning in sorrow.

clubs are overrated.

there's no reason to fall in love at this age, but there's no reason to be frivolous either.

God is there to help you when your heart is ready.

you will look the way you you want to look when you like the way you look now.

my family DOES care about me more than I realize.

I have self-control.

It takes two people to make any relationship work.

and then.

fine then.

I really don't care about the curse of the ones who leave. I try to act like this ridiculous predicament doesn't bother me, but it really does. Why is it that when you want someone, you can have everyone else but them?

Whatever. Fuck it. Can't wait for the boys in San Francisco. See you at Christmas, baby.

raw.

there's nothing like summer.

revolution.

When you fight with your family, you have no one but God.

You can see a person every single day, but they can still be a stranger to you. Illusion never changed into something real. I'm cold and I am shamed, bound and broken on the floor. you're a little late. I'm already torn. I'll tell you one thing: a year ago today, I most certainly was nottt irked with my family.

Anyway, I've come to the conclusion that I deserve to be pursued by someone I am genuinely interested in. If you are a part of my past, thank you for teaching me what I want and what I don't. If I want you as a part of my future, please be there when I get there. If not, thank you for one day becoming the reminder that I am WORTH IT and not worth waiting around for anyone.